Solitary Mind of a Mad Man

"Remember, darkness does not always equate to evil, just as light does not always bring good."

- P.C. Cast, Betrayed (via wordsnquotes)

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Jul 30

I was reflecting the other day on life. I thought about all the things that made me happy and realized there were so few. I thought about all the things that made me angry and realized there were too many. I thought about all the things that made me sad and realized there were also too many. I dove deep into my inner thoughts and thought about all my fears, the biggest of which is being a failure. I fear the darkness but I also fear the light. I fear being alone and misunderstood, I fear I will self destruct and the bottle will one day control me. I reflected on my shame and my guilt. I’m guilty of hurting people with my words, actions and thoughts, I’ve put people through hell out of spite and now they hate me, nothing I can do about that now. I’m ashamed of my actions I could have handled situations a lot better as an adult but that also doesn’t matter either….

Jul 28
Reflections

I wanna go on a date with some one I never met before and at the end of the night have them judge my character

Jul 12

"First you take a drink, then the drink takes a drink, then the drink takes you."

- F. Scott Fitzgerald (via goddesstenenit)

Jul 11

Taking steps in the right or wrong direction brings about progress. Changing for better or for worst at least you changed. Loving someone who doesn’t love you or loving someone who adores you.
Some decisions will haunt you for the rest of your life but those are memories you have to deal with as an adult. Shoulder your responsibility and walk tall as if the load isn’t heavy at all.
Don’t indulge in momentary pain meds, becoming dependent on uncontrolled substances is a whole different demon in itself.
Guess what I’m trying to tell myself is life really ain’t that bad and there is always a tomorrow. Even so take life seriously but relax and live day to day, in the moment.
Life is too short….

Jul 11

Things you do, to make me wanna leave you. Make me wanna go somewhere and do things I ain’t supposed to to do. You drivin me crazy and I feel I got to get away, baby girl you not that far away from a nigga leaving you!!!

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